Perfect vs. Reality

Let me start with the day when everything was fine, when everything was perfect. It was like a dream come true, to find a man who was almost perfect.  You might be wondering why I used "was", yes what you saw was right.  "He was just so perfect", where every girl might scream and shout his name, where every man might be jealous of who he is.  He is an intelligent man, making him the valedictorian in their batch.  He is a sporty man, making him one of the best in the varsity players.  Everything seems nice yet in each and every side there will always be loopholes that you might accidentally see or maybe, meant to see.

It was summer, and everyone were busy with their entrance exams for their college life. We were enjoying our times together.  We roamed around the beautiful tourist spots of the town. Each and every second was filled with happiness and joyous moments in our life. We shared each moment like there was no tomorrow. Again, EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT.

But as I walk through the road of my life, I suddenly realized that "perfect" has no room in my heart.  I suddenly thought that I am always at my fantasy world, like I was dreaming that someday this MAN won't leave, that someday this MAN will never break his promises.  I tried to break the glass dividing this doubts that I had.  I opened my heart to REALITY.  By then, i finally thought of those guys around me. He was just like the same with the others, and then somehow someone whispered me these words, " If you're in love, you're just busy looking at someone without even turning your back to someone who might be better, MUCH BETTER."

During that time that I heard those words from somewhere else, I thought of breaking the PERFECT glass that we made.  I broke it into pieces. But the time that I did that, one of my trusted friends called me.  I thought he knew about what I did.  I was puzzled because it was just a minute that have passed when I did that and I didn't tell anyone about it.

My trusted friend's words surprised me A LOT. He told me about unfaithfulness, disloyalty, infidelity, and all the words that can describe what this PERFECT MAN did.

During those times that I was in his fantasy world, a witch had already captured his heart. This witch got my PERFECT MAN from me, without me knowing about all of what SHE did. He poisoned my PERFECT MAN'S heart bringing me to a person who doesn't know anything. They were together just a minute after I broke the glass that my PERFECT MAN and I did.

It was so painful... VERY PAINFUL. I thought I was the winner from the battle between HIS FANTASY and MY REALITY, but the truth hurts,I was defeated by his gratifying words and promises.

HE BROKE MY HEART.

HE WAS THIS PERFECT MAN THAT THIS POOR LITTLE GIRL HAS EVER IMAGINED, BUT NOW HE IS JUST A FLAWED PATHETIC MAN...

-this is just a short story that i made based from my experience...

- i hope that this would at least remind my friends (GIRLS/BOYS) that there is no room for perfect relationships. Sometimes you need to open your eyes and see how painful the real world is. Sometimes we just have to enlighten our hearts and minds so that no one will be hurt to the things that we are going to do...

-michelle alcantara.. :)

The MT (Medical Transcriptionist) Training Experience

The graduation and Nursing Licensure Exam are all done.  But after that, the big and terrifying question is, "What's next?"  Me and this good friend of mine were talking about serious things one time like dreams, goals in life and well of course our career path. He opened up about something that I'm not that so familiar of, that I even forget it time after time.  

“Why do you keep on asking me about it, it’s MEDICAL TRANSCRIPTIONIST!”

Well I cannot blame him for that, like I said, I’m not familiar on that field.  But basing on to the term that he said, I guess it is all about typing out the words from an audio file.  Since I love typing and computer stuff I tried to ask him about where I can have the training.  So he gave me the information regarding this. Since Kathlene, my friend from college also was interested with the training; we then decided to enroll ourselves for the training.  But, disappointment came when I realized that we both were in the waiting list because it was fully booked.  So hopes and prayers were in my head that time, wishing that we can still attend the training.  Then one night as I was about to go to sleep, I received a text saying that we can attend the orientation.  I was puzzled.  Meanwhile, I called Kathlene to confirm if it really is true.  “YES, it is true!”  I was startled.  I cannot explain the feeling that I have that time.  But then again, I doubted the text and the answer from Kathlene.  It was just so hard for me to believe everything.  I decided to call someone behind that text I received in the middle of the night .  His voice (Sir Marc's) was so professional. I was imagining him to be that cool and serious type.  And again, he said “Yes, you both can attend the orientation.”  Finally, after 3 times saying those “yes”, the spirit of excitement slowly turned back to normal.

The day of the orientation came.  But I had no idea regarding the venue of the orientation (I felt so dumb for not asking where the venue is!).  That time I was lost.  I went to CAP building then to TESDA office and then again to CAP building.  Just imagine me rushing everything, thinking that I’m almost 5 minutes late.  This “lost experience” of mine is just the perfect example of what too much excitement can do to me.  I learned from this.  So next time, I need to bring myself back to reality and set aside all those eagerness first.

That guy from the other line when I called in the middle of night that I described as that serious type turned out to be the jolly and good-humored guy.  He made the orientation great we introduced ourselves then called it a day.

We were many at first but then the number decreased.  I guess it is because of the schedule, the typing, and some other reasons.  Typing is really hard at first.  I know, because I've been there.  I was so slow in typing way back 2 years ago, but after some practice you can then be that “touch typist.”  Hearing tests were also hard but the hardest part among all is the transcribing itself.  Those different accents, those words that are so hard to fathom, those different guidelines that we need to follow, those days when we press F4, F7 and many more function keys, and those great times when I have learned other short cut keys—some were really hard at first but the good side is that we have learned.  Like what people say, it takes time to master everything.  So, we have practiced typing and transcribing by having different exercises. 

After or even during some exercises, we had some bonding moments--eating lunch with my classmates and talking about almost everything.  That is one of the good sides of training.  We get to meet new, cool, jolly and God-fearing friends.

I cannot describe the feeling that we had when we were together.  We laugh at simple things and I even learned different expressions from them “baknang, nauyaw!”  (Ilocano words for rich and judgmental). Maybe you will not find it to be hilarious at all.  But, the funny thing with these words is the way they delivered them and those words kept me laugh and it reminded me of them. 

The experience I had at CTEISI was overwhelming.  

Sometimes in life, it is not just about the learning, it is also about the laughs and the moments that you friends have been through.   

If there is one thing that I’m sure enough, it is that I will miss them and that I will treasure those moments that I have been with them.

Thank you Kathlene, ate May Ann, ate Harolyn, Rhodesa, Jonalyn, Gladys, and lastly Ma’am Julie and Sir Marc! :D  

Realizations...

Many people say that life is unfair, but what can I say life has never, ever been fair. Bitterness is not actually on my blood right now, but it's the truth and reality that's talking.

Back in the days before when I was still at school...

•  We review much at night until we find ourselves asleep in the morning drooling at our study tables but in the end the person who is known to be the "gangster" and the "black sheep" in class gets all the credit.
• Sometimes you wait along the long line in the canteen just to get a simple delicacy and satisfy your hungry stomach because you can't eat at a boring class of a very strict professor and you can't buy outside because of the limited break time given by the administration, but then out of nowhere you heard the sound of the bell then  you just roll your eyes and end up wishing that you were deaf and did not hear the bell rung.
• We have done most of the work in one project but one classmate brags that he/she did the work and would be praised by the instructor and when the individual grades are to be given and then you accidentally saw the higher grade of that someone.
• When we make all these mistakes in life and yet those who did more were the ones who were not scolded.

I may not have listed some moments during a student life, but there are a lot of experiences that may say that life has always been unfair but sometimes through these various experiences in our lives we do embrace the fact that we make mistakes but we should also be determined and realize that mistakes are made for us to fathom that better comes before best.